Just decided that I’m going to start a liquid fast of lemonade from a specific recipe that supposedly makes you lose a lot of weight but also detoxes your body. Probably a complete scam but I’ll give it my best. I’ve just got to try something, anything to curb this appetite to purge constantly. I’ll keep you updated on how I feel during it as you tend to have absoutely no energy from these kind of fasts because of the lack of carbohydrates. I’ll start with a goal of ten days then I’ll see if I can expand on how long I can survive on the fast otherwise I’ll have to try something different.
Oh, yesterday I mentioned my mum was wanting an immediate ‘chat’. Turned out my step-father had heard me purging last night but I managed to lie my way out of it by saying that I think I’m coming down with a stomache bug which was what caused me to vomit. I think she believed me, I think. Off on another tangent I’ve only had a cucumber sandwich so far today, don’t ask me why it was just one of those cravings. But, the only problem is that my step-father is cooking a really nice family dinner tonight and I have no idea of how to avoid it in the first place without arising suspicion and furthermore, how to restrain myself from so terribly wanting to eat it. God, it will be ready in about 20 minutes and I haven’t even come up with a plan apart from the “tummy bug” thing. Anyway, I’ll let you know if I manage to refrain.
Love to you all, as per usual.
Jessica xx